The first girl I had feelings for, hope she hears the song/ still think about her almost if the tears were wrong/ Too young to understand the typa wife I had in mind/ despite the fights or times she’d cry that I had designed/ she had a style that was right with a smile and advice/ till loved piled on me like shes the only woman in my sight/ But of course she rejected me, absorbed in the memories/ lost in my tendencies to take whatever was offered me/ Then B was tellin me a story of what he saw before me/ she was horny for another guy and despite my every warning/ she stayed committed very faithful, listened like an angel/ till he fucked another bitch as soon as he was able/ then she spent a year depressed, when I tried to reconnect/ she said that we were friends but she had just needed breadth/ but now Im with her much more than time we spent then/ mostly cause now she dates my best friend/
C)
The roughest stuff of my never loved enough clusterfuck/ is that the only girls who like me were you know who and such and such/ suffered once too much at the lips of a subtle slut/ then fucked it up with real girls cause of my love of lust/ but you were different, I could see through your cold stare/ still don’t hold fair, run my hands through your gold hair/ Take the train to far stops to stay toward Far Rockaway/ always went for the kiss but to a “err…not today”/ We’d roam the most through mostly old groups/ since I learned that you had no real home to go to/ choke up as I lay these colder vocals/ spent more time in a week with you than with my exes total/ Heeeeeeeeeey, cheer up its OK/ even if I have no say in where you stay on most days/ All was well until I held you and you said that we shouldn’t/ crying as you told me this whole time you were dating a woman/
C)
Hold me in this place, miss you every moment Im awake/ know it’s a mistake even though I lost my faith/ Would hold your body close as you kissed these scars/ impossible to cover our 2 years in just 16 bars/ Despite my evil speech and frequent demons/ You completed me and still know my deepest secrets/ we shared every single waking detail and moment/ we compared splitting up to permanently heartbroken/ felt the harm set in my heart or next to me/ worked so hard to get back into your arms temporarily/ Always let bygones be bygones, you became my icon/ from the day you were taken and we became a time bomb/If someone enters her life Ill be tellin my daughter/ that through hell and high water if a guy offers/ to stay after times up and we know it’s a right love/ Ill be sure to never take away her happiness like mine was/
Soul-searching hip-hop from this Florida rapper, with lyrics that dig deep and take an unflinching look at life’s questions. Bandcamp New & Notable May 1, 2023