Solemn, a monster with an honest problem/ an admonished toxin with a demolished conscience/ They think that it’s a game, that in fact there is no pain/ I feel distracted and plain when I touch our cracked picture frame/ The stress that’s really worth it which I confess has yet to surface/ digress I feel deserted although you’re exceptional and perfect/ Told few, but when I wake up at night I reach out to hold you/ realize Im close to, the edge of my mind that shone through/ We’ve had callous crimes performed against imbalanced lives/ like it’s foul inside we were denied each other’s presence on Valentines/ Is it anger is it hurt, one in the chamber to make it work/ feels like danger and a curse, like Im a stranger when we flirt/ I try to be relaxed but catch anxiety attacks/ violently I collapse till this side of me retracts/ No issues, or misuse of trust between lovesick fools/ no way to explain this other than…I miss you/

C) It feels like Im headin toward the end of the line/ Im runnin out of options and Im runnin out of time/ I gotta make moves, in the worst way/ don’t call the curtains on me it’s only the first stage/

Inside of me stress is waitin, why we’re violently separated/ despisingly estimated why Im only crying and dead in hatred/ Cause for the grace of your warm embrace/ I return to this morbid place where courses wait/ to torture fate and scorn with faith/ in the poorest way with all my thoughts disgraced/ Your comments give me promises and Im astonished by your confidence/ but Ill be honest since Im not content, Im not positive we’ll accomplish this/ I cry whenever your presence is sensed/ depressed intensive since all my best friends are dead/ there’s no set date so your memory brings chest aches/ no end takes or X-Rays can even heal my breastplate/ no intense ways on best days or sex tapes/ can’t invent plays to come up with less pain/ the pain of Columbine, difference is Ill stop in time/ but when Im in your absence it only makes me want to die/

C)

Indelible times, feeling your body pressed against mine/ a heaven sent find with a temperament fine/ Fear shows here whenever the tears flow/ a pierced soul when she comes to call me her hero/ missing you awfully as your memories haunt me/ never presently fought me just tenderly pouring/ love and consideration, your touch is an inclination/ of lust or appreciation, never enough synchronization/ I yearn for you till every nerve ending hurts/ when worlds ending burst or I earn a blending curse/ Not a bitch or aggravated, never switch to acts of hatred/ my perfect fit is calibrated, not a bit exaggerated/ My imagination was elsewhere at your graduation/ thinking how I could free you while you were being congratulated/ Distinctive for a certainty, instinctive you wont be hurtin me/ my decision is that I wanna be your husband for eternity/

C)