Features and was produced by Rez the Silverback. Video is below.
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Addicted to this side of me, restricted by society, imprisoned by anxiety. Sometimes you gotta break away and forge your own path, like this…
Rolled with a troop of kids, never had a group of friends/tried to fit it with whatever the losers did/ Attract beef but don’t pack heat ask me/ why I skipped every track meet, because I’m not an athlete/ Still had a gnawing hatred for my lost coordination/ with my attitude costin me jobs at corporations/ Armies of thugs who live at parties and clubs/ and get hardly enough of Bacardi and drugs/ Was always too perverted sick to be a nerdy kid/ hurt a bit being rejected as worthless shit/ It’s no mystery that music peers show no sympathy/ it seems Im just another little kid with a little dream/ Clean cut, weak stuff and I never seen love/ just a text and half-hearted request to meet up/ Keep running into obstacles, stuck in the same lane/ cause it seems a conversation is impossible to maintain/
C) Outcast, outcast/ livin life Im the road because Im always alone/ Outcast, outcast/ whenever Im home, there are no calls to my phone/ Outcast, outcast/ When it comes to my friends, my best one is the pen/ Oucast, outcast/ Just a motherfuckin Outcast/
Outcast, Im an outcast/ outcast, just a motherfuckin outcast/
It’s all deception, I aint never been accepted/ tryna spread a message but the tension got me stressin/ that’s why Im so defensive, twisted and Im so demented/ in a different dimension tweakin each and every lesson/ I’m locked inside a lab, my intestines are bein tested/ I’m in the game of life and I am the failing contestant/ I’m repressed, turn checkers to a game of chess/ more or less Im an outcast but I progress/ starin at the sky wonder what will fall next/ but at the end of the day wouldn’t change how I was raised/ last of a dying breed that’s how I plan to stay/ and that’s what I’m givin you when I step on stage/ no matter the age, wisdom in its purest form/ I have been at war, demons and internal thorns/ that’s why its fuck the law, cause I don’t believe your source/ and I’m the higher power livin in a human form/
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So damaged it hurts with passions in verse/ barely got connects despite my collaborative work/ praised for my shamelessness by friends and acquaintances/ then some shit would happen and Im the one who’s blamed for it/ like that matters, bein outcasted by whack rappers/ and the good ones are all liars and backstabbers/ that’s why Im not prominent, they’re all thieves on top of it/ honest so Im not a part of their conglomerate/
Inadvertently it seems that no one says a word to me/no Happy Birthday or good luck on your surgery/ my brains alive with hatred and the pain of isolation/ seriously doubt I’ll be in the light or famous/ restore more like lost swords when listeners got bored/ but Im still ignored and never fully explored/ Let’s say I get rich, then people point back to this/ I’d point to my circle of friends that still doesn’t exist/
Soul-searching hip-hop from this Florida rapper, with lyrics that dig deep and take an unflinching look at life’s questions. Bandcamp New & Notable May 1, 2023